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Ugh

Today, everything is a struggle.

Too scared

The moment I wake up, I’m sick with fear.  I can’t function in this world.  There is no place for me, no space, no use.

No one wants me.  Everyone tells me,

“Be someone else, not who you are.  You’re a brand, a commodity, an object in the market place.”

I don’t want to be.  I want to be me.  Well, I don’t… I hate myself.  I hate my situation, I hate my life, my failure, my 24/7 pain.

But I want to be allowed to be me, not forced to contort and distort myself into something someone can find a use for, a servant, a tool, something to be used to make someone else more money.

We used not to be brands.  We used to be human beings.

I want to kill myself, but I’m too scared.  How pathetic is that?

Panic Attack

Here inside, where nobody can see

Fears you hide, well they’re coming to get you

Look around, but there’s no one to help

All on your own oh, oh

*

Oh, oh

*

Feeling scared, so go out into town

With your friends, but they don’t really get you

How can they, when you don’t tell the truth?

Lie through your teeth oh, oh

*

Oh, oh

*

Come back home and collapse on your bed

Decide to hide, ’til your friends all forget you

Stay inside, just go out of your head

Slipping away, oh oh

*

Oh, oh

Nitrogen

I thought that you should know

It’s time for me to go

And you should know that I’ll be long gone by the time you read this

I’m checking out of town

I know I’ve let you down

And I should tell you I’m so sorry, I know you don’t need this

I’ve been here for so long

I’ve seen it all go wrong

Forgive my gutlessness but I don’t want to stick around

Things haven’t worked out here

I need to disapear

And if I stay I’ll only bring you down

*

Tonight’s the night

You know I’ve seen the light

It’s alright

Don’t try, no need to work out why

Goodbye

Don’t cry

Be happy in your life

Tonight’s the night

You know I’ve seen the light

^

It’s hard to take the strain

This city leaves me drained

You know I tried so hard but I can’t seem to make it pay here

I know it’s hard for you

I know it hurts you too,

But I feel so lost and I just can’t seem to find my way here

When I’m gone you’ll be free

Won’t waste your energy

You’d never say this, but you know you’re better off without me

Can’t  bear for you to see

What has become of me

I’ll take the easy way out there’s no doubt

^

Tonight’s the night

You know I’ve seen the light

It’s alright

Don’t try, no need to work out why

Goodbye

Don’t cry

Be happy in your life

Tonight’s the night

You know I’ve seen the light

*

You might be sad a while

But one day you will smile

And you’ll be happy, cos you know I found a better place

And when you think of me

You’ll know I had to be

Away from all of these things I can’t face

*

Tonight’s the night

You know I’ve seen the light

It’s alright

Don’t try, no need to work out why

Goodbye

Don’t cry

Be happy in your life

Tonight’s the night

You know I’ve seen the light

*

You know I’ve seen it now

You know I’ve seen the light

Light…

Liar Liar

There’s nothing new today

I feel so dead inside

There’s nothing new today

I want new surprises

And I want new horizons

I want new horizons

And I want new horizons…

I want to burn

Liar, liar set you on fire

And now some vicious creature

starts accusing me

I feel your boots upon me

You are the enemy

of Love

Liar, liar set you on fire

Liar, Liar

Liar, liar set you on fire