Too scared

The moment I wake up, I’m sick with fear.  I can’t function in this world.  There is no place for me, no space, no use.

No one wants me.  Everyone tells me,

“Be someone else, not who you are.  You’re a brand, a commodity, an object in the market place.”

I don’t want to be.  I want to be me.  Well, I don’t… I hate myself.  I hate my situation, I hate my life, my failure, my 24/7 pain.

But I want to be allowed to be me, not forced to contort and distort myself into something someone can find a use for, a servant, a tool, something to be used to make someone else more money.

We used not to be brands.  We used to be human beings.

I want to kill myself, but I’m too scared.  How pathetic is that?

Panic Attack

Here inside, where nobody can see

Fears you hide, well they’re coming to get you

Look around, but there’s no one to help

All on your own oh, oh

*

Oh, oh

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Feeling scared, so go out into town

With your friends, but they don’t really get you

How can they, when you don’t tell the truth?

Lie through your teeth oh, oh

*

Oh, oh

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Come back home and collapse on your bed

Decide to hide, ’til your friends all forget you

Stay inside, just go out of your head

Slipping away, oh oh

*

Oh, oh

Crazy

I must be crazy, I must be crazy

I must be crazy, yeah

Crazy, crazy ah

Crazy, crazy ah ah

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I don’t like society

And I know you don’t like me

I don’t fit into your scheme

Life is a sad, mad, bad dream

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I’ve been going up the wall

You’re not helping me at all

You just tell me that I must be crazy

You can’t understand the way

I can lie in bed all day

You just tell me that I must be crazy

I must be crazy, I must be crazy

I must be crazy, yeah

Crazy, crazy ah

Crazy, crazy ah ah

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I don’t trust my therapist

She’s an over-optimist

I see clearly, what is wrong

You don’t know what’s going on

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I’ve been going up the wall

You’re not helping me at all

You just tell me that I must be crazy

You can’t understand the way

I can lie in bed all day

You just tell me that I must be crazy

I must be crazy, I must be crazy

I must be crazy, yeah

Crazy, crazy ah

Crazy, crazy ah ah

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I’m crazy, I’m crazy

So crazy

I’m crazy, I’m crazy

Yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, yeah, yeah

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I’ve been going up the wall

You’re not helping me at all

You just tell me that I must be crazy

You can’t understand the way

I can lie in bed all day

You just tell me that I must be crazy

Shut the curtain, close my eyes

I know you don’t sympathize

Criticize me but your words are empty

You’re so hollow, you’re a shell

You can go and burn in hell

With the devil now, cos you don’t tempt me

I must be crazy, I must be crazy

I must be crazy, yeah

Crazy, crazy ah

Crazy, crazy ah ah